The Wind

How do you know when to hold on…or let go?
How do you know, when to hide or let these feelings show?
So many times, along a strong slow gentle wind…
So many times, I just don’t know.

Sometimes you have to put the brave face on,
But inside all your courage is completely gone,
Sometimes it feels as if it has stolen everything from you, this wind..
Sometimes it feels like you’ll never see the dawn.

How do you stand by the side, and see your friends in love and sappy?
If I gave you a box of crayons, would you, could you color me happy?
Sometimes it’s so cold, so harsh; this blowing wind…
Will love find me? Oh why can’t it be ..snappy..

Sometimes it feels like the cold, sharp knife,
While others, I swear, you Feel…you Hear…that happy tuned fife.
But it’s always there. This SteadySlowRoughFastCalm.....steady wind…
That breath, this wind… called life.

the newbie :)

Starting August 16^th, one of my new titles will be Miss Myers as I will be starting my undergrad student teaching at Trotwood-Madison HS. It seems crazy!! I am so very excited to be starting, but yet, I am absolutely scared out of my mind. Even thinking about it gives me butterflies in my tummy! The teacher I will be under is a very nice lady, just 29 herself, and has been teaching at TM for seven years. This year she will be having all freshmen (this will be fun…). Maybe my experience at Dayton View Academy last spring was just the prep to what I will be experiencing at TM.

Yesterday was a shopping day to get “teacher clothes”, and I came home with some good stuff, and from good deals! I spotted a $12 pair of gray pants that were regularly 60 bucks! Though I hate shopping, I do love finding good deals ;).

This morning I went out to TM to have my picture taken for my ID I must wear. Walking out the door, I asked my mama if I looked alright, and if I looked teacher-fied. (yes, that’s a word in AnnieVocab) I think she got a little choked up about her little girl growing up and so close to being a full-fledged teacher. I love my parents SO very much and words can’t explain how much they have helped me become the person that I am; and no matter how much I’ll deny it, I’ll always be their little girl!

I covet your prayers for a few things. One: my SANITY! (Haha) Two: that I will be able to influence and impact these young adults to become better than they are. And Three: that I will have the courage and patience to keep up with these kids, as well as do other class-work outside of being at TM.

Well, now I suppose its back to packing and prepping for my family vacation to GA! Now that is definitely something I am SOOO looking forward too! A week of relaxing and fishing and boating and reading and did I mention relaxing? ;)

back to the flow of things

back to Ohio. back to the world. back to the daily flow. This year's youth conference was amazing once again: preaching twice a day by a variety of preachers, and fun times packed in between. God really moved in the hearts of the 2,185 teens registered this year.
Before going down, I was not extremely excited for the trip. Yes, there was some excitement, but not as much as usual. I think one reason was the fact that i am 21 and attending a Youth oriented trip. But I was so wrong in thinking that I would not get much out of the preaching. God hammered and broke my heart. Our church took 7 teens, myself, my pastor and his wife, and I can hoenstly say I love each one of them. This year the conference had a Singles/College & Career track (which included over 100 ppl) alongside of the teens. We had an ice cream social one night, and went bowling until 1am another night (and just let me tell you, driving through mountains, 'S' curves, and straight down drops, is a bit frightening by yourself at 1am!) I had so much fun! While bowling, my team was talking about our teens. most of my team members were all complaining about their group; whiney 13 year olds, sleepless nights, long showers, and more and more. I didnt have a lot to say about my group, in a way i was missing being with them because I knew they were having fun, and even though they get on my nerves occasionally, they're just like my little brothers and sisters.
In our group devotion time on Thursday night, I could not hold back my tears. I was telling our teens about those college counselors complaining, and how God had been working on my heart about being a good example to both them, and other young people in my life. A few of the messages during the week had hit on that point of being an example and getting on the right track to Christ. Am I helping young people along the road? Am I helping them end up Still Standing when it matters? My heart was so burdened about trying to be a leader and a good example to those around me. Even thinking about it now, my eyes are misting, where I still have a heavy heart in this area.

I long to be an example to my young friends, to my young cousins, to those which I have NO CLUE who look up to me. We all have unseen eyes on us, constantly, and it is my fervent prayer that I be a good example to those around me; even when i stumble and fall. Young people really need good examples of people stumbling too, we are all human and make mistakes, we sin everyday. I am just so thankful that I have a heavenly Father who saved me by his Amazing Grace and allows his Son to be the perfect example.