I’m convinced that life
has taken me hostage with no ransom. Its
been chaotic for the past few months and the only light I see is in June. But, it’s a beautiful crazy and I’m loving
every moment of the school chaos…usually.
There’s only been one
meltdown thus far. Granted, it was a
horrible one, and I’ve had several other moments where a hug, squeeze, or kiss
on the forehead has saved me from another. I don’t think I have ever cried and
sobbed so hard. It’s funny that huge
meltdowns can start with something so small, mine started with a bag of potato
chips. *sigh*. Everything pent up inside
of me came flooding out and I had a solid meltdown for a good 30 minutes. It really
wasn’t pretty. I think I’m better, I’m not convinced yet though. Everything has been building up, school work,
teaching, church things-the new role as church secretary forced upon me and
everything else that has happened.
There’s a reason for Wright State’s national ranking in the Integrated
Language Arts Master’s of Ed degree. Completing a master’s degree in 10 months
– or really, 8 ½ to 9 with the breaks in there – is tough, rough and everything
in between. But, it’s worth it, even if
there are a few meltdown breakdowns along the way.
I love what I do. I love these kids. I know each and every 118 of them by first
and last name. I know something about
their life. I love teaching them. I love
interacting with them and helping them have light-bulb moments. It’s amazing. Everything is going so well,
and I am so blessed to be working with them.
The 620am leave time is not so amazing, but everything else is.
I ask for prayers for
our small church. We have an interim
pastor now, and he’s a really great man.
His wife is amazingly nice as well.
Most of the hard transition probably comes from my end, but there are a
lot of things that need worked out still.
As mentioned, the position of church secretary has been placed on me and
I’m struggling to keep up with everything.
Though, I created an awesome letter head all by myself and the bulletin
looks good each week with the proper grammar, even if no one else notices; ha.
This transition has been
immensely hard for me. Bitterness and
sadness seem to have taken over certain aspects of me, and I’m trying to
overcome them. Sometimes it’s the rain that
saves me and takes the place of the tears I want to let out, but there is so
much positive in my life that I cannot dwell on too much sadness. Photography is another saving grace in my
life, when I get to pick it up. With the
break of WSU work coming, hopefully I’ll be able to pick up a few photography
jobs…hopefully.
Back to the grind of
homework and prepping for students tomorrow.
Plus side: I’ll be subbing tomorrow, so yay for being paid!
